Walk On By

Out of madness or pure insanity I gave this blog address to him. "Him" being the colleague crush.

And today I am utterly embarrassed.

Don't get me wrong. I confide in him. The most private matters of my life, he is one of the first the know. Trust? Yes, maybe I have this trust in him I can't quite explain. I don't really hang out with him, though I'd love to do it more often. But I reckon I am not his kind. Perhaps I am perceived as too uptight, too reserved, that no man would find me fun enough to hang out with. But that's another story.

I gave away this address so he knows what I feel, how I feel, towards him, that is. I've been liking him for more than a year now, so I think it's time for the truth to be told.

What if he does not feel the same? Well frankly, I would guess as much. I don't mind, really. You can't really force people to like you, adore, lust or even heart you, as my kid sister would put it.

If he doesn't like me back, then life goes on. But that won't stop me from adoring him from far. I certainly won't resign or move to the moon. Fine men are hard to come by, so allow me to swallow my pride. Quite frankly, I feel relieved. So now he knows, so now I can get on with my life.

However, the downside would be there would be some sort of awkwardness between us.

I guess when that happens, one of us would just have to walk on by...