Who Wants To Live Forever?

So who wants to live forever?

I don't. I want a happy, fulfilling life, even if it was a short one. Material things does not spell happiness for me; but love, attention and knowing you are unconditionally loved is my ultimate life fuel. I burn for love, for warm caress and talk of nothings from dusk to dawn.

So I'm a dreamer. So I dream for a beautiful life, surrounded with love, especially coming from my lover. Where is he? Where is my lover? My fuel of desire? I wish I knew...

"Never leave my lonely", a song once I heard. So true of my feelings. Never leave me lonely please, my soul is not built for that torment. Was it scientifically proven that a human can rot and die out of loneliness? I wish they dig further into this matter. I'm sure as hell this is true.

Maybe it can't kill your physical body but it sure did killed my spirit over and over again..

That's the beauty of spirit. You killed it, it dies. Then it comes alive again. Then you kill it again and it goes on and on, as long as you like it.

So my spirit has been killed, tormented by loneliness. But I survived, merely.

But it looks as if my spirit has died long time ago...